Hi there, Brothers and Sisters in Christ. I hope that you’re rejoicing in the Lord this day, and every day. My name is Nickolette, and I want to personally Welcome and Invite you into our time here at His Table Is Ours. I am so thankful for every wonderful face on the other side of this screen. I made a decision to Give my life to God around June 2024 after a very heartbreaking situation occurred in my life, leaving me to think, feel, and believe my entire life was over and that I would never smile, laugh, or be happy ever again. I thought that brokenness, misery, and depression was my end and that was it for me. Then the most unexpected, never thought about, shocking thing happened. God saw me, He then found me, and the most touching thing at this point in my life, He heard me. In between the messy thousands and thousands of tears, screaming, pain, unbelief, such brokenness, despair, and the worst feeling in my entire life. I felt like millions of pieces of my heart, soul, and being fell on the ground. Because of what I was carrying I visually saw that I would never be able to pick them up ever. From the tiniest fragment that I was shaking too much to pick up, to the big pieces that kept cutting my hand causing me to drop more pieces. I just knew deep down, I was done and I couldn’t do it anymore. I was sitting in a corner that was dark, lonely, empty, and abandoned for longer then I could admit and I felt helpless. My head wasn’t just down but buried in between my legs. I was so hurt I couldn’t speak; think anything but detrimental painful things about what had happened. I quite literally didn’t ever want to get back up from the corner I was in because of this pain. It made me physically ill and empty. I didn’t want to do a thing, eat, be around anyone, exist. Nothing. It was the worst time of my life Ive ever experienced and I knew I couldn’t live or feel that way anymore. It was so so depriving, dark, and hopeless. It broke my heart for myself that I ever got to that place, it was heartbreaking for me to feel as if I did this to myself, not to say there was someone else involved. I had gone through a breakup that was slowly breaking more and more well before we took precaution in the deliberate. During this time, one day I remembered someone telling me something I never keened on to much before when they told me, but that took full captivity on me this time around. The very words were “Talk to God”. In particular, they would always tell me this when they knew I wan’t doing ok and really down. In this time of my life I was so broken and desperate, hungry to feel anything but what I was, and sad. So I decided in a moment to start having a conversation with God, explaining exactly how I feel, why I’m so hurt, why did this happen? more and more. After many tears, crying, and a release of it all of a sudden, not long after I Talked to God, I noticed I didn’t feel the miserable feeling even somewhat as heavy as it was… I was like wait what. I feel ok…? I’m like not going to die from this? I think there’s actually hope… what?? This was the outcome from me talking to God. The most life changing thing I ever did was take my mess, failure, doubts, pain, fear, worry, stress, every possible thing ever to God and woooooooooooooooooooooooooow what He has done with me! His love from that very moment forward touched me so much I said I could never live the way I was before because this..what I discovered was everything I’d been looking for and more. It was Him.. not the boys, or the sex, or the money, or the attention, or even a successful relationship. It was Him. At this time Something inside me knew that it was Him I was looking for the entire time and just like that God lifted my head up so slowly and reached His right hand out to me… finally Brother and Sister I reached my Right hand back and He lifted me up from the dark corner I was in, into His loving, big, compassionate, gracious, protecting, safe arms. And He Welcomed me Home with the biggest hug and most compassion I’d ever felt in my whole life. Talk about my knight and shining armor! That’s my Savior literally…Wow to this day that was the best thing that ever happened in my life and I couldn’t live without Him since. I am so thankful I went through what I did to find Him. Man I need Him and I love Him with my entire being even when I struggle, fail, mess up, no one could do what He did and continues to do for me. Folks, He didn’t just give me hope, show me His love, ease my worries, take my fear, and crown me with compassion. Brother and Sister, I’m here to tell you He brought me back to life and not just life how I knew it to be, NOOO Brother He saved my soul, Like Brother, He redeemed me from the pit I was in! He renewed my entire soul! He set me free from the chains of myself and everything else I had ever gone through! He healed me physically, emotionally and spiritually! Brother He didn’t just stop there, He gave me peace iv’e never experienced before. He filled me with more joy and enduring hope than I ever thought existed. He held my heart and said You’re Mine and I want you. He showed me I’m worth far more then the pain that i’ve been through. I’m worth far more than anything anyone has ever said to me or made me feel. Daughter you belong to me and I love you with your brokenness, pain, heartbreak, sadness, depression, doubt, and every other thing that has ever hurt you. He loved me with it all and didn’t ask for one bit of perfection. He accepted me with my flaws and showed me I am His hand-crafted, beautiful, masterpiece that is worth more then anything this world could offer because I am His. And I’m here to tell you reading this. You are worth more to God then anyone or anything else. He who decided to create you and your whole life, family, friends, and everything in-between noting spared alongside Jesus. The one who breathed breath into the dead bones and dust you once were…Child you are so important to God, so precious to His heart, and so valuable in who you were made to be. You are formed and created In the likeness of His son, Jesus. He created you with the best of the best and didn’t make one mistake! Oh brother and sister how I would love to give you a hug right now. Thankfully I know someone who gives the best hugs that reach your hurting, aching soul. That’s God and His Son, Jesus. He has wiped everyone of my tears. He has heard every single thing i’ve said. He’s been my Father, Brother, Friend, Healer, Deliverer, Savior, Redeemer, Light, Life, Strength, Love, Heart, Home; and every possible title, He has been it all. He created us, each and every one individually. I mean no one aside from Him could know the deepest depths of you and what we each need, feel, can’t say, want, desire, you name it, He knows it. And only He can because He created your inmost being Child. God, Our Father, Creator, and Maker, is the most loving, kind, patient, graceful, incredible, Father and friend i’ve ever met and wow has life been the best thing ever since I decided to Talk to Him that moment. My God My God My God did the greatest thing with me, my mess, and my life that me or anyone else could never do. Now, to this very moment, I live all Thanks, Honor, Glory, and Praise to Him and I can tell you that I think you would love and live the best life you could ever think doing the same. In Jesus Name. Thank you God for the best life ever. Thank you Jesus for being my Savior. Thank you Holy Spirit for being my guidance.
I knew He was everything that I had been missing in my entire life the whole time.
As my testimony speaks for itself, I’ve said from that day forward that God Is Able and Everything More Than Amazing.
God is so kind, patient, and gracious as He awaits you to reach back to Him. God’s love will grasp all of your brokenness and every depth of your heart, brother and sister. I am so thankful that I’m saved. You’re going to be ok, Child. God is with you.
Revelation 21:4
And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.